My Aunt died Tuesday. She was 53 years young and so full of life….until she wasn’t. Through all this I know God has perfect timing. I’m trusting his hand in this and just holding strong for those around me that are shredded by grief and pain and loss.
I put on a smile and hug those that need it most. I retell stories from happy times gone by. Like when my Aunt bought me and my brother and my cousin super soakers (waterguns) for Christmas one year and we played outside in the snow and cold for hours with her climbing trees and ducking around corners to surprise each other with a face full of water. Her smile was radiant. She took me to minister and feed the homeless on numerous occasions. No neighborhood too scary or tough for the 115 lb God fearing ball of love that was my Aunt. She was armed with bibles and Gods light, because that’s all she needed in this life. And numerous other stories I’ll clutch in my heart and retell again and again.
This morning is the eve of goodbye and my heart is breaking for those around me. I’m having a stiff drink and scheduling time with my bible.
Please pray. Pray for peace and comfort and wisdom in this journey.
Water leak….cause ya know the best time to have a pipe break is on a Sunday 🙄.
Great time to put up some more pipe fence. It was really cold! But……
I didn’t really mind because I got to run the skid loader while hubby did the cold work.
Of course we also had to quit work long enough to go to the Veterans Day Parade.
Turns out it rained basically the whole parade. So we loaded back up to go home and work some more……
My two year old filly, Flash, has been in training with Cal and Kim Noyons for about thirty days now. I went out to see her worked today. She has another thirty days before she comes home, but it was fun to see how far she has come already.
She looked overall willing and had a ton of try but you could still see that hint of obstinate baby in her. But really for thirty days I was blown away with how she worked! She knows how to be hobbled, working on ground tying and will stand quietly. Kim walk, trotted, and loped circles in her. She has a great back and was really working off her hindquarters.
The plan is to go out again in about two weeks and I’ll actually ride her. So excited for that day! Anyhow, that’s where Flash is and how she is.
So I was sitting here at the table. My two youngest coloring and blasting me with a hail storm of questions, “look at mes” , and just general little kid banter. I love my children . Like a lot. Like to the point I’d rather hang out with my kids than most other people. (Except PInk or Lady GaGa, I’d totally drop my kids to go hang with them…) But you know that moment when you feel as if your brain will burst ? Yeah, I was there….so totally there…One more, “Look at this Mom!” And I was totally going to lose my crap.
Sometimes my brain just needs a monotonous task to zone out to. So I decided to sharpen all those pencils my kids get for holidays, random school parties etc. I counted 39 total. Awesome! Total zone out work. As I began sharpening I immediately felt more calm. The noise of the sharpener tends to drown out the kids talking and I can just smile and nod for awhile. Perfect peace! I was feeling pretty zen ….until the pencil sharpener over heated and died a tragic death on pencil ✏️ #14!
Am I the only one that needs some zone out time?! #askingforafriend
So with dead 💀 sharpener in hand I gave it the old sendoff. To the trash my faithful zen master.
The fence in the picture you see above is a work in progress. My husband has wanted pipe fencing for nearly ten years on the HK Bar. He has saved his money, traded scrap, traded labor, and a whole list of other back breaking tasks in order to accomplish his goal. I’ll tell you I really do admire him on big projects like this. He makes it happen. While I am left biting my nails and wondering where the money will come from, he just figures it out! I am a creature not designed like him. I am a what I call a “money in the bank” type and he is the “hardworking dreamer” .
A loose definition of those labels in my mind are as such. Money in the bank people save a gob of money and THEN and only then do they set out to do a big job. Hardworking Dreamers do just that, they dream up what they want and then they just do it! They work their butts off in the process but they make it happen .
I guess opposites do attract. 💕❤️