There have been
seconds minutes hours days of my life I wish I could erase. I wish I could hit a huge easy button and just wipe them out in one fell swoop. Gone. Poof. Clean slate.
People say tomorrow is a new day. Truth be told, I am one of those people that
sometimes always says annoying things like that. I try to be optimistic in the moments that make a person just want to crumple and blow away like a candy wrapper in the wind. I try to smile when everything seems to be falling apart around me.
I’ll tell you something I’m tired. I don’t want to smile. I want to scream. I want to not care. I want to break things.
So today I did. I didn’t smile. I did scream (mostly in my head). I pretended not to care. And I tried to break my soap dispenser but it just landed with a dull thud in the sink. It didn’t even chip.
After today I realize that as tiring as it is to be the person that says things like “tomorrow is a new day”….the person that smiles while everything falls apart around them.…it is MORE tiring to be angry, it is more tiring to not care, it is more tiring to shout, it is more tiring to not smile.
Sometimes we all need to throw our guts on the table. Sure its messy and undesirable, but who cares?
Not me because…..
” Tomorrow is a new day..”