Today I got the itchy crazy I’m going nuts, nothing feels right, yucky feeling, impatient, I’m going to scream, frustrated, depresseditis. Is that a proper sentence with proper words? No, and frankly I don’t even care. That’s just exactly how I felt today. I was in one of those funks you just get stuck in.
I was feeling bored with my routine, trapped by my life, and all out cranky.
Don’t get me wrong I love my family, but I’d just had it today .
I tried several things to make me feel better.
I sat on the couch.
I drank extra cups of coffee.
I turned music on and danced with the girls.
I cooked and baked and grilled.
I colored a picture.
But none of it made me feel any better.
I watered the grass.
I actually just started out to water my few flowers I haven’t managed to kill or haven’t baked in the sun.
And then I started spraying off the side walk where the chickens had dropped a million Poop bombs.
And then I started watering the lawn that is burnt by the sun. It was strangely relaxing. The water glinted on the halfway green grass and made it shine. My plants perked up a bit from the cool water, and so did my mood.
It gave me a cool down I desperately needed.
It gave me time to think.
What I realized is, when I’m feeling depressed, I just need to keep trying to get my happiness back. I have to keep going. I have to keep doing everything I can think of to move forward and shake the nasty feelings.
All the usual things that make me happy just didn’t work for me today…….but I kept trying….and my peace of mind finally came from something as simple as watering my lawn.
From the HK Bar to the world if you’re mood isn’t good, just keep trying. Keep moving forward, keep searching……
Sometimes the answer to greener grass is as simple as watering your own lawn.