It’s been a little over two years now that my world became smaller in so many ways. My journey from full time nurse to stay at home mom has narrowed my world immensely. Mind you, I don’t mean this negatively, but realistically. Being a stay at home mom has been one of the greatest joys of my life. But it was a drastic change indeed.
I used to read four different newspapers before a 6 a.m. nursing shift, devour a dozen novels in a week, spend hours riding my horses, decide to pick up for the weekend on a whim; I did all these things and more with no abandon.
And then I became a mother.
And my world became smaller.
My reality went from career driven nurse by day, and horse adventurist by night to the mom wearing three day old clothes with spit up crusted in my hair comparing diapers in the baby department after being sleep deprived for weeks on end.
Sitting here tonight with my cat, Eli, on my lap I was reminded about these changes over my recent past. I couldn’t help but think how small his world seems to me, and how much alike we truly are. After all he is a house cat and a little over 2,000 square feet is his/our whole world, my husband, Boo, Owl, and Bunny are often the only human interactions we have for days on end, we are both ridiculously excited by food, and anything bright and shiny, and we always seem to seek each other out.
I’m so thankful to have a companion to share my small world with me. He’s an unwavering testament that happiness doesn’t require a BIG world.
My Eli looks out the window at the birds and the trees and the big world that lies beyond his small world. He knows there is a big world out there, and he knows that someday he can venture out once again into this big world via his small world. But until then, much like me he is content to soak up the laughter of the girls, to bask in the warmth of my husband, to feel these fleeting moments till they are engrained on our bones…..because he, like I, know that this small world won’t last forevor and one day all too soon we will be shoved back into a bigger world.
I’ve found my “smaller world” holds so much more happiness and profoundness than my “big world” ever did. And I thank my boy Eli for reminding me of this.